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There is much things to think and think and think. It's time to think and decide.

*appreciating every single moments with something that may not able to do in future*

I have 1001 things to do. Well, my imagination is just 360 degree. I want just to explore while I can. Some of the things was done by most people at younger age and some of things , people had never bothered to discover, some of the things are not related to my studies and total a different perpective. Dealing with my dad with my plan is one of the hardest thing to do. Having on own risk basis and mistakes make me better policy eventually made him to care less. There are few things i would want to share but i don't think its proper to update in the blog. Anyway, thanks for reading =D

 

Of random emo thoughts

Being emotional is a just a part of me. And where exactly it poured apart  from  to Allah, is this place.

Its March. Many good memories have been craved along the days and minutes of this month each year. Except one day 16 March. and addition 11 March this year. Both are my best friends birthday. They are no longer existing in my life pathway lamp post but they are the who made me to create this path. When one left, i showed the best of me. when another left, i showed the worst of me. what left now, just mixture of both leaving my real self somewhere. Many I can call as best friend per say but only both had fitted into my definition of best friend. Having not so luck of having best friend, even whom I liked didn't want me.Maybe imperfection within myself had made three of them to move away. Now, the fear gets stronger every time being mentioned that I'm soon gonna tied to a guy. Very much strong. The feel of being left alone again.I'm just simply not prepared. Maybe I'm thinking too much. Having to have that trust for thrice and broken for that thrice, for the forth, i'm had no trust to offer anymore. I believe no more. The happiness moments kills every moments spent for thinking. I have much to share and talk but have no one ,whom I want to listen, to my complaints.-only silent cry is real companion-

Gadgets !

Results was out today. Alhamdullilah passed and have 2 months of holidays.

So, its time to change the gadgets whether exteriorly or interiorly . Top of the list ; Laptop , Camera, Handphone  and car.  All these had to change not because it has been old but i was careless of taking care of it. So, its time turn over new leaf and start taking care of it. Past years its has been a different dimension of thinking. I care-d for nothing. Even for my own personality and as well for my belongings. Having to have to be dependent on my own money gives a real satisfaction. The laptop with a few choices, as long it looks new to the on-lookers, so, change the casing. Well, with outdated Windows Vista- this need a change as well. Initial intention, to buy an Toshiba Ultrabook. I don't think my bank balance money allow me to do so. Next, camera. Photography is one of my passion. Past 3 years, i really had abandon that to a side due to busy with studies and college activities. I was very much keen of having a dslr for past one year. Again, i'm not keen to fork out 3 K. Instead, had been looking forward for compact 16 MP with image stabilizer-Coolpix if not mistaken? Would go haunting after back to Penang next week- Hectic with family stuff this week.Handphone- Oh my- The disaster could only happen in front of my dad- dropped on tar and cracked on screen.(My heart break as well) He wanted to give Samsung Galaxy 11. I wanted to buy on my own. I didn't allow him to buy as i wan to buy from my money. At least, I still have choice of buying- HTC sensation XE.There is a lot to do my dear MYVI- repair the air cond, change to sport rim (may omit this if budget limits) and repaint the car (may omit this as well if budget limits). Changing is easy but taking care of it not as easy as that. I had much difficulty with taking care things because I simply don't care. So, now, let me acomplished with my mission. *Keep chanting for 10K to fall from the sky ;)*

Sem 6

Ok. Finally, I'm done with sem 6. This semester was way much better compared to semester 5. Second clincal posting with surgery and OnG. Both was a superb posting. Seriously enjoyed much learning and gaining knowledge. In suregry, i have really awesome lecturers who taught me the basic of understanding medicine. The first in the list is Mr Nik Ritza Kosai, general surgeon, Mr Hafidzul from MIS team, Ms Saladina from breast and endocrine, Prof Hanafiah from vascular team, Ms Azlan from hepato, Prof Ismail from colorectal and list go on. Their dedication for teaching seriously had made me to fall in love with surgery ! Something that i didn't really expect in the beginning. Second, OnG lecturers..Prof Norzi, Dr Yuli, Dr Nirmala, Prof Zainul..No word could describe how much i have learnt from these people. That was about my posting. More interestingly happen was for my exam. There were many times there were leaking elements in exam question but none had to re-seat for the exam. This time we had to re-seat- lifetime history of medical faculty and the re-seat question were basically out of our preparation guide. Hope all goes well.

Next, friends. Everything is going fine. No major hurts by words action or silence.If yes also, I have chosen to ignore and forget? No new friends. All with old friends. No new best friend as well of new enemies. This time I was much busy with my studies and family so not much time i spent with close friends.

Activities that i joined was Gopeng Health Attack and Sabah Health Program. There is post on this, So , im not going to write much here. ESZ as well. I didn't join much activity since the date falls on weekends unfortunately, family first as had quite a number of important function to attend. 

Thats all for this sem. Nothing much happened to add more. Each day i'm leaning new things about life and humans. Its interesting enough to be on this. Its tough till challenges mentally. In the end of the day, staying strong with the believe of Allah's help provides much comfort and the ability to move forward to touch the sky.

Thats all. 

E7303.

Happy holidays =D

Its just another..

Put your hand on left chest near your heart and as well use your brain.
If i appear to be someone close too you. Go on reading the entire post. If not, with respect, its just a waste of time reading this blog because you would not understand the post or me.

Seriously was disappointed with a friend's comment who failed to put himself/herself in my point of view.
(If you think i'm sensitive, yes , I am !)

Ok back on the initial update.
InsyaAllah, my sister engagement is next month and wedding on 11/11/2012.
50pound that need to be given. and no other extra . Fuh ! So , just hoping everything will go well.

Hmm.. so, my mum was asking about this another guy from Ipoh who is just become an houseman. I gave no answer as usual. The only thing I asked was his details. If he like me (hoping for very little possibility) and my parents like him as well, so engagement for myself would be much nearer.  A blind procedure is going take place soon. I am very much scared for an acceptance as well for rejection. Accepting a stranger in life. Even the closest friend do not be with me more than 3 months. Rejection? I felt much when my sister my rejected for the first time telling that she is short. Me? Impossible to say that I'm short with 162 cm height but For being too dark-colored like how some is still commenting on my skin complexion? I hope this guy if happens to reject me , would not use that as a reason. Thats the only only thing i hoping for. Hope Allah shows a guys whom worth for waiting for 23 years.

comment replied .

To a super caring friend , The doctor who did matrix : I have replied your comment in the post of when I fall out of love. I am not sure whether you are one of my close friend since your comment seems to be that you have not known me for some time.

A summary of close friend birthday 2012

17 January - Shirley. My oldest best friend from primary school.
22 January- Nithiya. UKM geng.
7 February- Satish. UKM geng.
16 February- Thiru. UKM geng.
16 March- Sponge Bob.
17 May- May Ting. Penang Kaigals Will update more on her birthday.
29 May- Anita. UKM geng.
25 June- Shamirah. Penang Kaigals
29 June- Logeis. Penang Kaigals. Will update more on her birthday
03 August- Kezreen. UKM geng.
24 August- Vithiaa. Penang Kaigals
26 August -Samuthira. Penang Kaigals
21 September- Saundra. NS friend
27 September- Archana. Penang Kaigals
2 November- Kalyhani. Penang Kaigals. Will update about her on her birthday.
22 November- Pei Ern. Penang Kaigals
18 December - Darshini. Penang Kaigals- Missed last year as contacts gone. Well, if this year any new update. Would certainly have a post on it.
22 December- Rheeshaalaen. Penang Kaigals. The almost forgotten- and missed wishing! Thats was bad as was reminded by the person itself. Certainly need a post this year to compensate.

These are the closest people to me. They may be addition as the day come along this year but certainly not minus from what I have now. Just knew that some people was looking forward that I wish them birthday wish in my blog! Well... this year, insyaAllah, surely i would do (if not hot tempered and deleting my blog again =P)