Rejection?

Of 23 years, i have learnt something about life and me. Love is never meant for me. I had crushes on many guys which i categorize as nice to see. But none was the to say i like and loved. Or have I ? *I have no idea how love should feel*. But this one guy I know falls into that 2 ; like and love. At first, the first thing I know was his name when i was in first day at Bangi. He was the YDP Jaksa but he was not there. His name had a special attraction. At that moment, I really wanted to know more about him. A week after , i saw him at my previous college. He has a look but not good looking, not so tall yet not short but taller than me, not so fair ,skin colour like me, he was alone for the 3 times I saw him. The forth time in the cafe, he approached me wanting to know more about me. Well, i was the only Indian Muslim junior girl entered first year at that time. He is 2nd year medical, did STPM before entering UKM. This point really made to be attached more with him. We exchange numbers and we was quite frequent with messages and calls. We did went out for four times in first semester.I was attached with him compared to my batch-mates. I was very much reluctant to share anything with girl friends that I have at the moment at UKM after traumatizing moment with Sponge Bob. As the days goes, I realized that I start liking him more eventually I did fall in love with him *It just a feeling of I cant describe- well, this also uncertainties of me of defining love at that moment* So, after this unexplained feeling, I began to move away from him in the second semester. Even, he does avoid me. I have no idea of what happen on his side. Though I have avoided him, thoughts of him never had disappeared. The unexplained feeling grew deeper. I joined many activities just to avoid much thoughts. After an year after that, I called him on his birthday. After that, I do keep in touch with him like once a month. I was going after him without me realizing it. At a point of time, I confessed and i really wanted to move away because its not right on his behalf as he don't have such feeling. I did for some move away. But i failed to do it completely. I was still going after him. *when i think back- it just look im so desperate for him. I have no idea. Thats why people say love is blind?* I'm the one calls and messages him. He do not after my confession. He would reply when i message and calls. and I really know where I stand for him. A friend. That's all and not more. It has been going like for some time until at home my mum already start finding life partner for me. That how a big headache comes into my head. For me, love only come once with only one person. Thats it ! It don't work out i choose to concentrate in my career rather than my marriage or future life. So, 3 days before I message him confessing again and i wanted to know his answer. Today, i got the reply.
Here it his reply ;

''..honestly speaking, I like you.. but im not sure whether I love u or not, as kita just meet few times, and i dont really know in detail about you.. I dowan to be bind by uncertainties or to anyone for now.. I will only decide who I gonna marry after I start my housemanship, and I know you cant wait till that time, so the best decision will be for u to follow ur parents decision.....[cont.]...''

It was a fair enough answer. So, one sided love ends here. Little I feel sad about this but not much. I need to be alone to feel much. I hope i don't such situation to be alone to think about this. I'm not strong to go through this.

Love only come once. I loved a guy once. Thats it. Time to focus on my carrier and not more in my marriage (Im not going to betray any guy by marrying another person eventually whereby my mind and heart belongs to this guy. Its an absolute betrayal !) Unless this guy comes back to me.I will tell the truth to my parents when the time comes. Allah knows the best. The end of my love story.