Random thoughts

Having time packed with activities had greatly reduced much of my thoughts of the past events from start of 2nd sem till Sabah trip.But from this week onwards, I have no activities to be packed with.No meeting. Today my brain had so much to think of the past. Especially happiness moments. For most, sad moments traumatizes them. For me , the happiness moments traumatizes me. Again, I have lost my peaceful sleep , peaceful moments. It was tough moment for me to hold to this and now it just back to normal again. I hate myself being in thing over over again as if there is no way  out. Those moments just cant get ride from my mind.I have no idea of how.Im tired of complaining to people over the same thing. Even bored to listen to it. From Taman Malawati, RSK, Klang. road trips, cars, midnight outing, pasar malam, library, bowling, beaches every single thing is still as fresh as it is.With people being the witness of the friendship that was going on, each time people tell/ask the name, seriously my mind goes blank and ..Hmmm.. Im kinda regret of allowing myself to feel happiness. I shall have stayed in my own world without having those happiness. I do feel of leaving my course for the sake how much the happiness is traumatizing me from moving forward. Its kinda stupid of thinking this as I have no other way. I shall find another activity to be busy with for the remaining weeks so that i could reduce my random thoughts of regrets.All.iz.well.All.iz.well.